I can hear my heart beating in my ears. I'd been feeling faint and nervous for the past few hours, anticipating what was to come. I'm anxious, but also wanting to seem confident. I want to be present, and not shy away from all that this morning means. I don't know where to look, what the right thing to do is. I don't want to seem aloof, but I also don't want to seem too comfortable. Act natural, I tell myself... but what does that even look like?!
Walking into a churc